Goodbye, 2019.

If I were to write 'Goodbye 2019' entry, is it still valid yet?
Haha. Who cares? I'm writing it anyway..

I never wanted to turn back time, but now if I were to ask such question I'd say I do.
Back to when I was 12 year old, so that I can study harder and be better.
And take extra care of my figure. Bhahahaa

Nevertheless,
I'm good to be where I am now, to be who I am now.
I learned a lot especially when I start working back into 2016.

People management.
Anger management.
Food management. Eh?

Cuma I lack a lot in time management. Camtulah manusia suka take for granted of everything.. (me blaming manusia for own lack) Haha.

Anyway,
I met lots of great people.
I selalu doa I dikelilingi orang-orang yang baik and Alhamdulillah I do surround by great people.
And minta Allah jauhkan dari orang-orang yang tak mendatangkan manfaat.

I traveled a lot around Malaysia.
Sebab outstation kerja, short vacay with family & girl friends and attend wedding some more.
And I ate a lot also followed my parents attend weddings.

So, saja je lah nak recap what I did and where I went throughout the past year.
Sebab dah lama tak polish tangan menulis kat blog even people are into vlog now. Haha.
Here we go..

JAN 2019

I purchased my first house. Second hand house. Yeay!

FEB 2019

I went to Kedah for short vacay with my friends.

Picture shown was tapak candi located in Sg Petani.

 MAC 2019

  

Me in Langkawi for short vacay with mom, sister and brother.

APRIL 2019

My best friend got engaged. Weee~~~

MAY 2019

I was busy working and preparing for Eid.  Just visualised in your head I went buying new baju kurung and stuff.

JUN 2019

Raya Aidilfitri. Yeahhhh~~~

JULY 2019

This was my first time eating mykori. Not bad :)

 AUGUST 2019

My close friends and I were celebrating Izyan before she ties the knot.

Izyan got married end of the month.

SEPT 2019

Went to Terengganu for a short vacay.

OCT 2019

Oct was a month that was full with wedding.

Accompanied my parents to the wedding. This one was at Melaka.

Another wedding. This one was at Asahan which located at the border of Melaka and Negeri Sembilan. So I don't know which state Asahan is in. Too lazy to google.

And another wedding. Melaka.

NOV 2019

I think I did great job going for a walk at Taman Saujana (is that its name? lupa...) right after had a breakfast of roti canai (a lot) with my friends.

DEC 2019

Another wedding with my parents. This one was at Johor Bharu.

And wedding again why so many I know I love to eat but what is this?

Last year was a year that was full of weddings. Me, being a clingy daughter and decided to follow my parents everywhere. Hiks

Also I did another stuff just got lazy to transfer the picture from my phone. Because I'm sure no one interested enough to know what I did every single day last year or else give me you number so that I can send all my pictures. Wooohh~~

Ok cukup with all the months. Bye everyone.

WHY I STOP WRITING.

Writing was once my soul and my way of expressing what I feel.
I started to slow down when I started my career two years ago.

Right now I am home alone and the thought of writing hits me.

Why did I stop writing?

I am no longer feel the calm when I write.
I am no longer feel the happiness when I hit the keyboard.
I am no longer feel excited about the thought of sharing something for people to read.

Ok.

Jadi harapnya, tahun 2019 I can start again at least once write up per month.
I did stop. But I want to start again.

Whatever it is, let's have a full overhaul this year.
Let's aim bigger and dream higher than anyone thought you could achieve.

158cm with 68kg.

Let's do something about this first. Haha

Till then. Bye.

HOW 2017 TREATED ME.

It was a pain in the ass. Haha! What a great word to start my long break writing for the blog.

Alhamdulillah, I am still blessed to be able to breath up to this moment even though I always think  I am not deserve all of this. Like, I always make mistake yet Allah still loves me and I am still alive.

When I started my career a year ago, I have so much difficulty in finding the right things to do and how to be well-managed. I just graduated and yet I need to handle so much thing that I never expected. In 2016, a 23 year-old me were ask to make a decision because people expect me to know. 2017 was full with my down moments and I never tell anyone about it.

IT-WAS-REALLY-A-PAIN-IN-THE-ASS.

Being me, I always hide my true feeling and I never tell anyone my difficulties until I know that person can do something about it. So yes, just being me is already difficult. People expect me to do well, but they never know what I face along the way. And I usually ensure myself to look okay even though I am not.

Briefly, I work for a GLC company in Malaysia that pay me well. But high pay comes with a great responsibility, and I am still question myself; “Do I really want to do this?” But thing already happened and for now I just follow the flow. Literally.

Ok, cut the craps. I just want to re-cap my life in 2017. January 2017 was good to me because I just started working. And from there I started to know that my work will deal with customers a lot. And staffs to manage. And plan to do. And additional work to be done. And ad-hock task to complete. And never-ending meeting to attend.

And the list goes on.

Despite this, I am bless to have lot of nice and helpful colleagues. Indeed, ALLAH MAHA ADIL. Which make me feels good when work are too stressful.

Lepas menulis sampai sini, I got confuse nak cerita pasal apa sebenarnya. Takpelah, take it as my rambling on Sunday.

Okay fast forward to March when one of my brother got married. I got a sister. And in April they did the sambut menantu reception.

In May when muslims started to fast and raya in June. In July, I went to Cameron Highland for a short gateway with the fams and I went to Terengganu because my ex-housemate got engaged.

It may be the first and last time. Pening giler naik Cameron.

People got engaged. I got flower.

Terengganu and lekor is a must!

The day I went for a day catch up session with my best friend.

Also, my parents went performed Hajj and around that month I started find new apartment to rent to live my sister in law. As Sukan SEA was in August, I got so busy to settle lots of work as it was a part of my company commitment and got the chance to watch gymnastic with my colleague (yang ni menang). I also got the chance to watch football final match between Malaysia vs Thailand with my sister (yup, yang kalah tu). And on August 30^th, my ex-housemate celebrated my birthday!!!

In September, finally found a new place to rent. And celebrating Raya Haji which means my parents is coming home soon! I also went for 3 days 2 nights trip to Pulau Pangkor with my colleague.

In October, my ex-housemate got married in Terengganu and there I went to Terengganu for third time in 2017. In November, just work and more work to do. In December, another short gateway to Ipoh with the fams.

Bridemaids on duty. Only two available, and guess who?

This one at Gunung Lang Recreational Park.

Fuhh! There you go all the stuffs I have been done for last year. Walaupun berterabur, biarkan. Janji tulis. Walaupun 2018 dah nak setengah tahun berlalu baru nak cerita pasal 2017, biarkan. Janji tulis.

Pasal jodoh tak ada ke?

Tiada.

So, I wrote mine. What about you? Mind to share? Leave a link and I will be glad to read yours.

Jumpa lagi!

Debor.

Kalau kira-kira dari sekarang, tinggal lagi 46 hari before I'm going back for good. Tak lah jauh kat oversea, tapi Sarawak ke Semenanjung tu kira merentas sea jugak lah. Bukan tahap kau boleh balik tiap minggu. Yang paling risau sekali sebab bulan Mei ni banyak deadline. Hmmm, tak lah banyak cuma ada 2 projek and 2 assignment. Yang projek tu yang buat hati tak tenang.

I just can't wait to end my degree. Rasa tak boleh cope lagi dengan engineering ni. Kalau ambik Master nanti (inshaAllah), belum pasti lagi nak sambung engineering. Sebenarnya bukan lah tak sabar sangat nak habis belajar, in fact I'm thinking to do double degree. Tapi tak nak engineering. Definitely no. Cerita pasal eng ni tak boleh bongkak sangat, kang aku jugak terhegeh-hegeh sambung master eng jugak, terhegeh-hegeh nak ambil PE. Puihhh!

It has been almost 5 years I'm living in Sarawak. Sejak asasi lagi masa 2011. Rasa wow sangat. Hahha! 5 tahun ni adalah tahun mengenal diri. Tahun mencari siapa sebenarnya aku nak jadi. Tapi tak nak cerita pasal diri, aku tengah tak sedap hati. Nanti-nanti dah habis semua ni baru nak serius menulis balik.

Masa sekolah dulu, aku tak pernah terfikir nak jadi engineer. Even sekarang ni pun kalau lepas degree aku tak rasa nak jadi engineer. But there's certain circumstances I can't avoid. Masa isi UPU lepas SPM tu, semua pilihan 1-7 adalah asasi sains hayat, cuma yang pilihan ke-8 aku letak sains fizikal. Saja.

Yang 'saja' tu yang padan muka.

So I'm here struggling my final year. Tak adalah struggle sangat pun. Relax je final year ni. Kelas pun berapa kali je seminggu. Tidur je banyak, Kalau duduk rumah pun belum tentu aku dapat tidur macam sekarang. Hahha!

Sem 8 ni antara sem banyak makan. Ke memang aku banyak makan setiap sem? Macam betul. Tapi antara penyebab stress bila kau suka makan tapi kau gain weight cepat.

Pape pun untuk tak nak nampak entry ni too dull, aku persembahkan antara makanan yang banyak karbo itew.

Secret Recipe!

Ice-cream!

Thai Chicken Rice!

Hot & Spicy Potato Story!

 

Chocolate Brownies!

 

Megggehhhhh!

Pau Kari!

Churros with Choc Sauce!

Bibimbap!

Ok kawan-kawan! Mari beramai-ramai mendoakan supaya NurulHafiza dapat kurus tahun ni. Semoga NurulHafiza dapat grad dengan cemerlang dan cantik selalu. Okbai.

Weird Goal.

I am having a quite weird relationship goal. But mind you, the readers; I am single. This is what I feel about my future relationship.

I always treasure my family more than you can imagine. I love to be at home, and I prefer not to be disturb when I am home. Sometimes, I forgot where I put my handphone and when is the last time I checked my phone. I love to online but not to be called. Every day, even if I start my day late as I am not a morning person, I will start with a breakfast and then rather than watching a TV or going out, I prefer to be with my mom. Talking to her, helping her to cook and such.

So, back to the main topic about my relationship goal, I always thought of having an orphan as my future husband. It is not that I cannot cope by having an in law, it is just that I would love it more if I can always be at home with my family. Like, you know going back for Raya for example so that my parents’ home is always the choice.

But, it was when I do not think thoroughly back then. Heee.. 

Now, I think it will be great to have a big family even though this weird goal is still lingering in my mind. Bhahaha!

Moral of the story, this is my boring entry. Just trying to warm up after not writing anything for a long time.

And !

I am already in my final year. Please pray for my final year journey will be smooth and I can graduate on time. I did not go back home for my mid-semester break, so I am very looking forward to meet my family in July, few days before Raya! Teheee..!!

The best thing is I already finished my study at that time and I can enjoy my one-month Raya to the fullest.

Till then.

Goodbye, 2015.

Hai.

Dah berapa lama tak menulis. Perasaan dia? Waw!

So that you know, I’m already half way from my end of school. I mean for undergraduate sesh. Who knows I might think to pursue for Master, right? Currently, I am in my first semester of final year. And, now is already examination week.

...also in my counting down the days before going back home. Tehee!

I remember my last serious entry (I mean the way I pour my heart when I wrote it) is about the summary of year 2014. And now, it is already the end of 2015. How time flies, isn’t it? =)

And for sure, I deal with many things till the thought of stopping to blog. Frankly speaking, my 2015 is full of dealing with heartbreak, relationship, faith, trust and emotional things. I really do learn many things throughout this year. And it was not easy.

When I started blogging back then, I really hope that every entry that I wrote at least gives a positive vibe to the people whom read it. If the readers cannot relate the entry with their life, at least they are not feel any negativity through my writing. Or at least they could smile reading my writing.

And I stopped. Because I really did not have any positive vibes anymore. I did not know what to write and what to share. I really gave up on my writing. Writing is always be my passion since I was in my secondary school. While dealing with all those emotional things, I stopped as the passion grows no more. It really broke my heart when I know I cannot even write anything since I once able to write spontaneously back then. Because writing is my passion and the passion helps me to be more me.

Forget the past, take the lessons. I hope 2016 will show my brighter side, more lively and real.

So, now...

Let me welcome our next year, 2016!

Let's be better. Let's be more human. Let's be more positive. Let's be more ourselves.

Those things I dealt with, to all the person involved in giving me the chances to look back what life is, I sincerely thank all of you. Family, friends and strangers. Either the heart break or the sweetness of life, I can not thank you enough for giving me the lessons. Because throughout the lessons, I learned important thing called, ‘life’.

Thank you. =)

Till then, barakallahu fiik.

My two-cents while waiting for Subuh.

There was a time when i feel backstabbed by my friend. When I thought everything will turn out to be okay, suddenly my friend did not do it as what it should be. I completely feeling down thinking that i have been left out. For my record, I thought of them not being what friends are supposed to be or do. But, for theirs, I don’t know because I am not a person who will ask directly and ask for a reason. I hate reasons. I hate excuses.

Asking directly is for sure leads to a bigger miscommunication and misunderstanding. And I don’t want it to be happens because I am not a person who like to apologize later to clear the problem.

It was when I pray then suddenly I realized something. The first situation with my friends was because I feel left out when they were not or maybe they forgot to tell me the thing that I remind them.

And I relate the situation with my relationship with my Creator.

The thing is, I also did not do what my Creator asked me. He keeps reminding me to pray, to do good deeds, to be sincere person and such. The adzan itself is a reminder for me to pray but I always delay in performing my prayers.

So, why should I pissed off on my friend because of them not doing what I remind them while myself not doing what Allah reminds me?

I keep asking myself not to write any personal thing here.

But it is hard to resist.

Ooo Allah, give me some peace.

Comeback.

This is a huge comeback i think.

Thinking that I haven’t write anything for almost a year in this blog.

I miss writing. I miss sharing. I miss everything related to word.

I’ve been having a depression this year.. Depression? I guess so..

And i refuse to do anything i love, for instant like update my blog.

Ok, enough with my future husband language. Bhahahaha

Yeay, dah final year!

Finally.

Of course. Banyak benda berlaku.

Alhamdulillah.

And this semester gonna be a tough one.. Next semester as well.

Ada FYP, IDP and subjects that I’m sure I’m not so really into it.

Dah 22 tahun.

InshaAllah will be graduated by next year. Hope so.

About to think seriously about what is my future plan.

Before ni fikir jugak, tapi tak lah kisah mana. Haha

Some of my friends planning to do their master after finish the degree which I’m not.

Sebab aku masih lagi berfikir. Masih terasa penatnya belajar. Kahkah

It feels good to have someone to pray for you.

Pray for me to be a good person.

Nampak tak. Tak teratur giler. Kejap cakap pasal lain, kejap pasal lain.

Dah.

Just so you know, I’m still alive.

Bye!

Borneo Highland, Sarawak. Checked!

Yeyyy! Akhirnya! Akhirnya! Akhirnya aku menulis jugak. Kau faham tak perasaan dia macam mana? Macam bunga api nak sambut merdeka meletop letop sebelah kau. Haha! Over sangat.

Aku ingat aku menulis balik lepas grad je. Haha..

Sekarang ni Sem 5. Spesifiknya Sem 1 untuk Tahun 3. Gittew~~~

Dia punya busy, perghhh tak yah citer lah. Sampai nak fikir homesick pun tak sempat. Kau faham tak macam mana? Macam kau nak balik sebab homesick, tapi kau asyik terlupa je kau homesick. Hahaha

Aku punya giler pun dah naik level. Adalah dalam dua level dia lompat. Tapi masih ok. Belum kritikal. Sebab apa giler? Sebab assignment, projek, test berlambak...

Tapi, walaupun aku lupa aku homesick... aku tak lupa lah untuk gi cuti.

Sebab tak balik so kita gunakan untuk bercuti. Destinasi pilihan...?

KRABI

Tak. Aku waras lagi.

Aku bercuti kat Sarawak je. Kat mana?

Kat sini...

Borneo Highland, Sarawak.

Aku pergi untuk 2 hari 1 malam. =)

Tapi nak sampai ke sini punyalah... ya ampun jalannya..

Tapi, alhamdulillah sampai jugak. Tehee..!

First sekali akan berhenti kat postguard pastu pak guard nanti tanya;

"Adik manis mahu pergi mana?" sambil kenyit mata.

MESTILAH TAK.

Pak guard tanya nak check-in atau tak. Kalau tak check-in kena bayar RM8 per person. Kitorang cakaplah nak check-in pastu dia tanya dah booking ke belum. Disebabkan kitorang belum booking siap siap, tu yang berhenti kat situ call orang atas kata nak check-in. Then barulah pak guard melepaskan kami dengan senyuman manisnya.

Kat sini ada dua pilihan sama ada nak bermalam di resort atau jungle cabin. Kat resort ada restoran tapi kat jungle cabin tu tak de. Hah, pastu datang sini kena bawak makanan siap-siap unless kau sanggup makan kat restoran resort yang mahal itteww.
So kitorang pilih nak jungle cabin ini yang berharga RM150 sehari.

Kami bilik No. 7

Sangat puas hati sebab bilik dia besar. Even kitorang 4 orang pun still selesa.

Ada keetle, drinking water, cawan, pastu apa ntah lagi disediakan... Kira selesalah semua. Bilik air pun besar, cuma tak ada gambar.

Ni view dari luar.
Masa kitorang sampai tu dah tengahari. So lepas solat, makan, lepak-lepak kejap atas katil terus siap nak keluar.

Muka pencinta alam habis dah ni. Padahal.....

p/s: Maafkan hidung saya yang tak mancung itu.

Ni model sambilan saya.



Yang gambar atas ni limit kawasan bagi yang tak check in. Sampai sini je pastu boleh pulang ye.

Inilah dia gambar kanak-kanak riang yang bercuti itu.

Waktu kitorang datang kalau tak silap weekday. Tu yang gaya 'kawasan-ini-aku-yang-punya'.
Dah puas melawat kawasan, marilah kita pulang. Malam itu dipenuhi dengan aktiviti ketawa sepanjang masa.

Esok tu lepas Subuh dan lepas terketar-ketar dengan kesejukan, kitorang keluar jalan-jalan kat situ balik. Orang exited tengok kabus kan...

Inilah dia orang yang tak mandi dan terus keluar tu. Ini dia.

Kita bagi dia fefeeling model bunga.
Bunga misai kucing. Miawww~~~

Tengahari tu kitorag checkout. Sebelum tu sempat singgah lagi nak ambik gambar punya pasal.

Kalimantan View Point.

Belah sinun namanya Kalimantan. Kira ayat tipikal orang bagi, kalau kau jatuh mesti orang kata,

"Arwah meninggal kat luar negara."

Sebab memang ni betul-betul sempadan Kalimantan dengan Sarawak.

Nampak tak gaya tu? Gaya pencinta bunga kan?
Tapi gaya hanyalah gaya. Aku dengan bunga jarang boleh buat satu ayat.
Kecuali kalau ayat tu;

"Hafiza dan bunga tidak boleh disamakan sama sekali"

Ok, ayat ni pass.

Air terjun ni tepi jalan.
Tu je caption yang mampu.

Lepas tu kami pulang.
Sekian.